Everyone is having relationship issues, I’m over here enjoying some great sex my bf delivers! ;)
Flying out to Washington to spend time with my boyfriend and his family and driving back to Arizona while stopping in Cali for a few days to go on the Napa Valley wine tour for our one year and go to six flags and see my family! Soo excited for Jordan to finally moving and going to be living with me, it’s been too long without him and some not so great nights sleeping alone, Thank god for skype though, I’d be even more deprived of his attention/affection if not for technology that brought us together and kept up together and strong within these months being apart. I can’t believe in 9 days it will already be a year! Words couldn’t even describe how much he means to me and how much I love him, he’s my best friend! :)
I think to often and to much about dying, the ways it’ll happen whether by accident, my own hand or someone else. I think of the days, months even years of life I’ve not made memorable or worth wild. I think of the emptiness I sometimes feel along with the pain and hurt I get from others and how some times I just want it to stop. I like to think everyone has a chance to strive for something in life that will better them on their journey in this world. I once thought I’d never find love, be loved or be found. I was lost, broken and found barley breathing with a broken heart. I was saved by an unknown surprise that happened in my life one who was just a face and a name, someone who saw light in my eyes and pureness in my heart. A person who saved me from myself and this boxed life that tried to contain and taint the sun from shining down on me. I’m forever grateful and in love with this person, he is my rock, he keeps me stable even with the distance we have between each other. He’s the smile I get on my face each time I hear his voice and he’s the warmth on my skin every time we touch. He is and forever will be my definition of a prince, he saved me and saw the true beauty I have within, made me believe I’m more than what I see or hear. I love him with all my heart and my entire being. He’s my boyfriend, my bestfriend and my first true love, the only one I’ve ever been 100% comfortable with, and felt so completely in love with the most positive and mutual feelings I have ever felt before for Someone along with many things in common. He’s my other half, my world my everything he’s truly and honestly completes me and I’m so glad to have met such an amazing, caring, honest guy who is sarcastic and funny like me and always has the best intentions and always acts with his heart. I love you Jordan!